Inspiration

“Easy to think when you are young how you are going to change the world. Not so easy to see how the world is going to change you.”—Conrado de Quiros.

During the weekdays, I always try to start my mornings with a dose of inspiration from the only columnist I effortlessly read, Conrado de Quiros. Although money—and how to make more it-- pretty much occupies most of my working days, I’d still like to get a morality/reality check through his columns. Am I being greedy (greedy daw o), selfish, indifferent? I like reading de Quiros because he reminds me of the need to be selfless for a world much bigger than where I circulate--atsaka, cute din namn siya, a. Now that I am 32, with child, I never thought a little bit of idealism would come creeping in my system once again. Not that I’ve been really active when I was younger but I did volunteer for an NGO for a while, attended one or two rallies and never hesitated when it was time to do my small part to oust erap from malacanang. But as de Quiros said, the world has changed me—and it seems I’m doing little to fight it. Being back in the city after three years in the province , a few nationalistic veins have come alive (or pwede ring baka today lang 'to). But that’s as far as it goes—it’s all in my head. As far as action is concerned, I have nothing to show. I somehow rationalize it with the fact that I still have to take total control of my life. This girl has a lot of things to unload (chos!) In the meantime, it’ll still be reading de Quiros everyday just to make sure that flicker of selflessness and nationalism doesn’t go out.

Guilty ever.